The pyre has burned itself out and the Quiet Crisis drew to a close, followed a period of spiritual isolation and recovery. With the pandemic still a thing, this entailed some physical isolation as well, but I have returned to exploring my spiritual and sexual self.
In seeking to deepen my spiritual connection to Marbas, I venerate him every day, opening myself his knowledge and energies. I asked him what could I do to further my ascension with him and he responded, as he has before: “Never Climax Alone.” Knowing that I have attempted rounds of NoFap — and failed — … read more
I had the idea of using a milking machine on my cock to enhance Jack Drago’s hypnosis tracks, since some of them reference being milked as part of the technique. But, I wanted to consult my Patrons before I did it, so as not to accidentally break our pacts.
Back before the pandemic, a mage posted an open offer on a forum I frequent to give away a “Legion of Spirits” of a type he allowed users to specify. He would then work rituals to summon and bind the legion to a sigil, and turn them over to whomever asked to take command of … read more
I have spent a lifetime seeking authentic spiritual experiences. I sought them in Catholicism, but was labelled an abomination and promised a lifetime of strife just to be accepted. I sought them in Neo-Paganism, but found that the Goddess only fueled the ego to create cults of personality. I sought them in Atheism and Intellectualism, … read more
Recent meditations on my spiritual self and on new tasks assigned to me by my patron, Marbas, led me back to imagery from an astral encounter with him from several months ago. With any growth, new information has to sink into all layers of your being, physical, emotional, mental, spiritual, to be fully assimilated. With … read more
As I described in my last post, I’ve been given a spiritual prohibition against masturbation by my principle patron, Marbas. This is the second time he’s made this request. The first time, I had an unfortunate failure of willpower and gave into the impulse. That resulted in a lengthy period of near impotence, which I … read more
When I engage my spiritual patrons, I communicate with them via creative imagery, projecting myself to another place. With the Covid-19 crisis unfolding around Atlanta, the country, and the world, my spiritual energies have been overtaken by the bandwidth needed to process the stress of daily life. I haven’t had as much spirit time as … read more